Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Beautiful Disaster

Whoa. It's only the 3rd day of the term and i'm already starting to feel the heat.
got the wheels in motion. hopefully Mrs. Yeo can help find that PRC buddy 2 help me in maths.
cos u noe wat, i seriously SERIOUSLY need dat.
nonetheless, im proud of me for having managed to complete my lit notes for Act 1.
right now, i'm taking a little breather thus i'm here blogging.
god i'm freaking tired.
waited 1 whole freaking hour for dr fung.
he cut off my stellazine but he left the fluoxetine.
damn. i was hoping to be taken off it.
aniwei, boo to the world cup ryt now.
damn dat spain got kicked out.
dats jus a beautiful disaster.
no more David Villa and Iker Casillas and no more FERNANDO TORRES!
*gasp*
dats a crime unto itself.
before i sign off, i'd like to say a little something to a few people;
firstly; great thanks to Mrs S. Yeo for being a good counsellor and helping me get my life back in order. i will never forget all dat u've done for me. thnx for always lending a listening ear and giving great advice n guidance jus so i can find my own way out of the rut i got myself into. i truly appreciate all dat u've done. thank u. god bless.
secondly; to Xin Min. i hope u con't fighting and staying strong. it's ok girl. everything is going to be ok. i noe u can pull thru dis. the trick is to keep breathing and living ur life. ur a great girl. i jus wished i could help u look into the mirror and help u see dat. remember, u got 2 stay strong always and love yourself before u can love others. u haf a whole life ahead of u. don't throw it away.i wish u all the best. am always here for u. god bless.
thirdly; to Nadia. hey babe. i miss u loads. we havent seen each other in a long time huh? i noe ur going thru a rough patch right now but i also noe ur a strong girl and ur going to get thru dis jus fine. always believe in urself. my home is always open for u if u need a break frm home k.i will always be here for u girl. noe dat k. love loads darl. u take care. god bless.
lastly to all those out there; just go ahead and live life.do the things u wan n live it with no regrets. "life is not measured by the breaths you take but by the moments that take your breath away."
:)

Monday, June 26, 2006

Being afraid of fear

It's amaths now and i'm sitting here in the cold library blogging
it's been an interesting 1st day back.
lessons same old as usual with lit being the same old entertaining hype
grins.
honestly, Shakespeare has quite an imagination.
i swear that scene was perfectly written.
giggles.
sometimes i pity poor gerry. she has 2 tolerate all my outbursts of bullshit n dats quite often.
but oh well, even she needs a little bit of entertainment in her otherwise dull life.
ok enough on lit brokeback and toys.
somehow, i feel a little guilty.
i should be using this period to study reali.
prelims not far off now. 29th august.
reali hope i wake up and get my butt moving to study properly.
reali got to get my act together.
i'm still afraid. still unsure.
still cautious and trying to toe the line.
i guess im afraid of fear.
fear does things to your mind reali.
but no matter, i noe i can do it.
it's all in the mind and in the trick of living life to the fullest each day just so you don't waste it.

Monday, June 19, 2006

That's hot

I was going thru my memory box and i found this list.
THAT'S HOT:
1.blindfolds
2.ice cubes
3.handcuffs
4.leather
5.chocolate sauce
6.wine
7.showers together
8.whips
9.pre-cum
10.up against the fridge
11.in a glass elevator
12.on the washing machine
13.chains
14.role-playing
15.elf-ears
16.on the hood of a car
17.in the pool, skinny dipping
18.collars
19.ropes
20.stilettos
21.uniform
22.lube
23.lap dance
24.photoshoots
25.in a lecture theatre when noone's around
26.on the beach
27.dusting sugar
28.striptease
29.pole dancing
30.on the deck of a ship (pirate style)
31.on the counter top
32.velvet
33. while doing laundry
34.on the operating table
35.lollipops
36.on the roller coaster
37.in the midst of parachutes(think pearl habour)
LOLZ. i had a gd laugh remembering the time me gerry n omi wrote dat list. it was during ss if im not wrong.
now see wat social studies can inspire students to do. lolz.
to amirah:
i'm sorry. i didn't bring my hp out wif me dat time u msged back.
sorry if u tink dats me being aloof or if it got you confused.
n i msg for a reason. the reason is simple. to show that deep down i still somewhat care and think of u as my fren regardless of whether u reply or not.
bt wateva it is, i msg frm my heart whether u wan 2 believe me or not.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Karma goes around

I've realised the true meaning of friendship
friendship is about happiness
it's about making your friends happy and seeing them smile, hearing them laugh
it's about being happy for them even if you're not with them
it's about always being there for them even if they don't want you there
it's about all the smiles and all the good times.
but most of all its about being there for each other whether times are good or bad and not just during the good times.
I've realised lots of things during this whole period.
i realised who my true friends are.
there are those who look for you wen dey're in need but leave u wen ur the one in need.
dere are those who tell u they're always going to be there for you but turn around n leave you when things get a little on the rough side
so much for "i'll always have your back"
i'm only talking about one person. and dats the one that told me that not too long ago but now has deserted me.
it hurts but i'll get over it. it's ok. i'm stronger now to face all these.
jus wanna say i'm a little disappointed in u.
to all of u, nikki, snam, rum, loll, jell :
hey. i noe things aren't the same anymore but that's ok.
i'm glad to see u guys are happi and doing good.
hope everything's going ok for all of you.
jus wanna say thanks for giving me this chance to be stronger.
i'm veri much grateful for that.
i've learned a lot about our friendship and all the mistakes i've made
i'm reali doing my bestest to change whether u believe it or not.
i'm learning to let it all go.
I jus wanna say that i'm not fighting to hang on to our frenship so much animore.
whatever it is, i still am always going to be here for you guys and i still treat u all as my friends.
and dats wat u'll always be.
i've said all that i've wanted to say, wish u all the best. god bless u.