Super Junior Pic Spam! :)

Warning: this post will be heavily pic spammed!

I just finished watching Super Junior Full House just now.

The ending was so sad that it made me cry. :(

However, I've really enjoyed getting to know Super Junior and their lovable and hilarious antics.

They make me extremely happy!!! :)

So to celebrate, I thought I'd do a pic spam. nyahaha.

Those who think I'm crazy, you'll probably think I'm crazier.

To Sue, enjoyyy.. and thanks very much!

I've already decided who's my most favourite member and it's Lee Donghae! aka Aiden Lee, which is his english name. Aiden suits him so well cos it's cute like him. heh.

He has a wonderful personality and he's cute and hott stuffs. :)

He always never fail to amuse me and make me smile when I'm watching him, especially with his many flips and attempts at speaking english. :)

and I love his voice!! especially when he sang in happiness. :) (i'll post the video soon.)

I think he looks much better in action though but still, here are some pics of deareast Donghae.

He looks hott even when he's frowning! heh.

haha. cute smile, fishy! :)

In this pic, he's totally sexy! nyahaha.


cuteness!

Donghae = LOVE <3

And next on the list is Kim Kibum! his english name is Bryan Trevor Kim. :)

I love him almost as much as I love donghae.

He is super cute and his smile is to die for! heh.

He was not as outspoken as donghae in full house cos he's more on the shy side but he does have his moments. :)

And I like it when he speaks english. so hottt. hehe.

His "die smile"!

haha! cuteness! :)

god, I'm seriously in love with his smile. :)

Next is Siwon!

He's the tall, charismatic gentleman who somehow always gets bullied in fullhouse. haha.

His gentleman-ly character is pretty appealing I must say. :)

Dimples! :)

Quite hot in this pic. heh.

Haha. cute smile!

Next is the resident pretty boy, Heechul!

He's also known as cinderella. :)

Extremely funny and such a joker! It's freaking entertaining to watch him cos he will always always make you smile and laugh you ass off. :)

I love this pic cos of the cat! Heechul likes cats too! :)

I like this pic of him. He looks more manly than his normal pretty boy. :)

Next up is Korea's No 1 Racoon, Kangin!

haha.

And this is Hankyung!

He's really the gentleman too! and an extremely honest and nice guy.

I sorta liked him when I was watching full house. heh.

And I love it whenever he uses the "I'm a foreigner!" excuse when he's trying to escape from situations. -_-

And all the above are the members of Super Junior that was permanently in full house.

Now it's time for those who made appearances!

and first up is Leeteuk!
He's the oldest member and also the leader of Super Junior.

He can be cute at times though I don't really prefer him cos I think he looks a bit too girly

Sorry sue. heh.

he actually looks quite hot here. I love his hair. :)

And now, we have teacher Eunhyuk!

He amuses me with his ridiculous explanations of things and his dancing rocks!

And lastly, we have Sungmin!

Wahh, his butterfly kick is damnnn nice siaaa. like whoa.

And so that's the members that I've gotten to know in full house. The other members were not there most of the time since they were living in another dorm.

Oh yes, in case you're wondering, full house is a show featuring the first 6 members of Super Junior in my post, who welcomed 2 foreign girls (anya and eva) for a homestay. :)

Lastly,
Thanks Super Junior for being so cutely adorable and so entertaining to watch.

Thanks also for the nice songs and dance moves.

and lastly and most importantly, thanks so much for making me happy! :)

I suddenly thought of you

I always consider thursdays my "burn out" days cos I'll be damn tired by the time thursday comes.

This is all because of my everlasting and annoying insomnia that only allows me 3 or 4 hours of sleep a day, sometimes less.

Yeahh, I'm crazy and it's freaking unhealthy to torture myself like that but I have no idea how to prevent the insomnia. -_-

Anyway, I mentioned that cos ms nathan was saying about how we all need to sleep at least 6 hours a day to prevent having a nervous breakdown which could be exacerbated if you're a coffee drinker/addict.

I think she should have just said "don't be like fi.". haha.

But hey, in my defense, I've been laying off the coffee cos there's no more cold nescafe in the canteen, only some crap brand which lives up to its name and tastes like crap.

I know I'm supposed to cut down on my usage of the comp which will mean no more blogging.

I'm not caring much for that cos I love blogging loads, even though it's weird to talk to myself at times.

Still, if I don't express the maelstrom of words in my mind, I will go nuts before the term is even over. nyahaha.

My sister is freaking crazy.

She's using her handphone like nobody's business and really overusing it.

She clocked 400 minutes of incoming calls for last month which amounted to a cool 350 bucks.

that's not even inclusive of the outgoing calls she makes and the messages she sends.

sial la. that's waaaayy more than what I clocked up in my whole time as a mobile phone owner.

Thank god for her, the incoming calls are free. If not, she'll probably be killed by my parents.

She's already in shitloads of trouble cos she's unlucky enough to get caught everytime her guy friend calls. -_-

And my mum keeps threatening that if she doesn't knock it off and limit herself, she's going to get my dad to call up said guy and tiu tiu tiu him so he backs off. (they've done it once to this stalker guy she had.haha)

I pity the poor guy if that ever happens to him. I remember how much haqi got scolded by my mum. But then again, the whole family feud thing probably played a huge part in that. haha.

Still, my sister is apparently waay less discreet than me.

I was actually inclined to give her tips on how to not get caught but a sadistic part of me wants to see her suffer a bit more. haha.

I suddenly thought of you on the bus home.

In a sick and twisted way, I kinda miss you.

But you're still an effing ass of course.

The first day back from wonderland

And as we all know, today is the first day back in school.

It's damn weird waking up and not just going to sleep at 5.30 in the morning.

As usual, I take 161 and the bus was late(by my standards), I think the new year screwed up the normal timings.

I have a feeling I'm going to have to start going out earlier cos all the J1's were practically flooding the bus just now.

They look so out of place with their secondary school uniform. haha.

I reached school around the same time I always do and sat at the same table, in front of the vending machine so that my dear classmates will not get lost trying to find our class.

I had to wait a while cos everyone was apparently later than usual due to first day back at school blues I guess.

Syafiq came next and sat down opposite me and I find myself really appreciating that routine moment because I know, later on, there might not be anymore routine 2007 moments like that.

The first period was CT time with ms Charles. :)

The very first thing I noticed when I sat down was how small the class is now that the new year has begun.

there's only 13 of us left and it was 10 just now cos the OGL's were not there.

I tried not to think of li and naz and syafiq much cos I know it'll just make me miss them more.

The irony is that I didn't even have to think of them cos small, little things will just automatically remind me that they're not there.

Like how nad had to switch the lights during MLL tutorial (which incidentally is super mendak cos the class was so freaking quiet.) cos Li's not there to do that anymore.

And how we can't not do the homework anymore as our main partner's in crime (in the case of always not doing work) have reverted to another life.

Gahh, I'm being sentimental. I think I'm listening to Battle's Icarus too much. -_-

And it seems that all the teachers have conspired with each other to freak us all out.

Almost everyone of them started off with a lecture on the importance of working hard, the competition to get into local universities etc.

Really. What a good way to bring me crashing back down to reality.

On a more high note, it was great seeing everyone again! :)

I enjoyed listening to vani and ying bitch, argue, threaten and bicker with each other, after two months not listening to them do that.

haha. It's good entertainment but class will be a nightmare when both of them start and can't shut up. -_-

Ended the day with a meeting with the "its" to consolidate the content that we have.

There were only 5 of us cos zul had the camp and the idiot vani ran off blatantly.

We sort of discussed what we had to do for a bit and spent the rest of the time talking randomly, gossiping and bitching. haha.

And next wednesday will be wen jia's birthday celebration after school. :)

she wanted to have it on monday cos her actual birthday is this friday but I have MLEP until 5.40 in the afternoon (bloody hell.) so changed to wednesday.

And it's confirmed that our weekly lunches will be on wednesday too.

:)

haha. I'm looking forward to it.

They're all starting to grow on me.

Super Junior :)

I was supposed to do lit today but I ended up watching

SuJu full house on youtube.

Haha.

I've only managed to watch the first 4 episodes cos I kept replaying the hilarious bits.

They're so cutely adorable and damn shit freaking ass funny!

I laughed my ass off watching them all, especially heechul.

damn joker sia. haha.

I still can't decide who I like best but I think all of them are pretty cute la.

kibum has a very nice smile. cute shits. :)

and I think donghae quite hot. haha.

Muchos credits to sue for recommending that I watch it. nyahaha.

I think I need to kill her though cos she made me addicted to watching their antics.

haha.

Still, it's good. Now, I have other things to destress with other than reading books.

:)

thanks sue!

I think the main reason why I'm interested or even bother in trying out kpop is cos I really wanted to try something new and step out of my comfort zone.

(it's one of my new year's resolution and I fulfilled it! :) haha)

and hey, I kinda like it.

:)

And I realise now that I'm pretty flexible.

I can listen to english, I can switch to jiwang, listen to indon and now apparently, I can listen to kpop.

HAHA.

That is so freaking weird coming from me.

Oh well.

gtg. wanna go watch more SuJu and laugh my ass off before I start stressing tmr.

:)

It's the birth of another year

And this will be the first post of the new year.

It's kinda surreal to me that yet another year has passed.

2007 went by in a flash. literally.

It's been one hell of an experience.

Much like this crazy roller coaster ride that was thril,ling, scary eye-opening and yet, truly enriching and fulfilling.

Sidenote: I guess I said more or less the same thing about 2006, just not as much as a high note as 2007.

I hope I grow up to be someone who can say that for every year that I live, cos I want to be someone who, at the end of it all, can look back and truly say "Hell, I've lived my life to the fullest I know how."

Incidentally, the sidenote is my long term resolution. More on resolutions later after I've recapped the year with as many words as I can.

2007 gave me a new begining (literally), a chance to start over with a more or less a clean slate.

I was extremely lucky early on in the year to have met/gotten to know better two angels that I will always hold dear simply cos they add colour to my life and provide me with strength when I'm in need;

Dilah cinta, thank you. Bani love, thank you too. and I miss you bad.

I will also always remember the day of the O level result release if for no reason at all, just to relive the feeling that I still triumphed and came out tops after shitty episodes in 2006. :)

At this point I have to thank the authority figures that helped; thank you mrs taufik. I owe you shitloads. and mrs yeo, for keeping me alive. kak ann, for listening. and, ayah & ibu, for always.

And how can I forget my first ever glimpse of 0734A, all the strangers that I've come to love and regard as my own brothers and sisters.

34A, we've pulled through thick and thin, weathered the most gruelling thunderstorms and been through hell and back together as one, cos that's just what we do.

I love each and every single one of you, thank you for making life in JC a hell lot easier. couldn't have done it with anyone else and if given a choice, I'd still pick all of you to go through it all again with.

Special shout out to those that's left/not going to be with us:

ain, for the short time that I knew you, you're a great girl. wish you all the best in manchester and god bless.

shaf, my one and only alien, we lost it for a bit no? but we'll get it back soon. :) I miss you tons girl. take care for me.

li and naz, my 2 pillars of support. thank you for everything. take care please and hey, you guys owe me study dates. don't forget! we need the motivation man. kfc sound good? heh. syg korg many2. :)

syafiq, damn I'll definately miss having you around. take care okay. and study hard please. syg kau too, chicklet. heh.

btw, mok ying ling if you sign and hand in the withdrawal form, I will personally haunt you down and kill you. :)

Lastly, 34A, you've given me more than I can ever wish for. Thank you all. <3

I'll also never forget the once in a lifetime experience of doing PW with my beloved ij107 groupmates.

We had frustrating times, disagreements and especially redoing the same shit and scrambling like mad rabbits to finish OP and WR but I'm glad I went through it with you guys.

I'll miss the usual thursday meetings for sure. nyahahaha -_-

And the lovely trips/camps that have made this year even more memorable;

1) the 2007 leadership camp with 0734A. It was hell fun and I enjoyed every single moment. We should go capsize with a dragon boat again, for the fun of it. haha. and Taurus rocks!

2) the MLEP camp at NACLI. I enjoyed hanging out with my TK girls (psstt.. we should go meet up for a date.) and also with my 34A babes. We learned more about each other's past and I definately appreciate each of you more after that.

3) the Pahang trip. thanks guys for making Pahang damn memorable. thanks for the support and encouragement and the fun and laughter. Radiate rocks! and mount kesong will always be remembered. :)

4) the MLEP KL trip. makasih to all. especially to my girls. we had plenty of ups and some downs on this trip but I greatly enjoyed myself. :) special mention also to ayah and ibu di kampung dorani. harap ayah dan ibu baik2 ajer. tunggu surat dari kami k! salam sayang dari anakmu di spura. :)

5) and lastly, LONDON baby!!! (credits wen jia! its a lovely phrase.haha) whee. thanks london babies, especially "its"! you guys really made me enjoy every single minute of the trip. other than the fact that I was already enjoying the fact that I'm actually in the UK la. I'm glad I shared it with all of you. it was daaammnn good! haha.

To all those I've met and gotten to know better this year, you guys know who you are,

thanks muchos for making a difference.

and thanks for the memories!!

damn this will be quite a long post. haha.

kk now time for resolutions!

1)learn to open up and trust people more

2) study harder and make it through A levels without dying in the process

3) find more destressers other than books, like rewatch weiss and furuba and reread absolute boyfriend. :) :) :)

4) try something new, like kpop. (psst, sue! haha)

5) treasure every single minute of 2008, even with all the crap moments too. :)

I hope that 2008 will be as enriching and fulfilling as 2007 and I hope that I will remember to enjoy the ride while it lasts, before I get taken on to the next year. :)

And to all, a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Weiss Kreuz and Zettai Kareshi is still love! <3

I was cleaning my room when I found the old Weiss Kreuz deck of cards I got for my birthday a couple of years ago.
Ahh, I remember the times I was so into them and also Furuba.
I still prefer Weiss Kreuz, the tale of 4 nightly assassins who are florists by day, but mostly for Aya/Ran and a little bit of Ken and Omi and Schu of course.
Although Schu can get quite irritating and Ken, a bit too gay. Still, Omi’s cute and Aya.. sigghh
He used to make me gush like mad. haha.
He still does. a little. :)
I know his real name is Ran but I still like calling him Aya! :)
K, I sound totally mad since they're anime and well, 2-dimensional and not real.
But, Aya's still hottt stuffs!! haha.


Furuba is also nice cos of Hatori and Shigure and of course Kyo. :)
Haha. The three of them are all so different from each other.
Hatori’s like the strong and silent type with the dark hidden past (kinda like Aya) and Shigure’s all nice and bubbly and Kyo. Well, Kyo’s a downright bad ass boy with a secretly good side.
I think I got a thing for guys like that. Haha.


Oh yes! Zettai Kareshi! Or Absolute Boyfriend! :)
I love that manga. Its fluffy and all and totally different from Weiss Kruez but how can you stand not liking it and Night??
Gahhhh. So hotts.
I remember a lot of the niners were gushing over Night and reading it during lessons. Haha. And some of us who couldn’t wait to read the translated version actually went to read the actual one. Haha.Those were the days.
Now, gushing over Night would be even more insane cos other than the fact that he’s 2-dimensional and not real, he’s also a robot in the story.
Nyahaha. -_-
Okay. Time for pics!!
(I act like they’re real people -_- and I think I sound a bit like sue gushing over her kpop. -_- )

Weiss Kreuz. I love this picture. With all their feline codenames. Aya's Abyssinian. They don't look much like deadly assassins do they? haha.

Ran Fujimiya, you're simply too hottt. :) and in case you're wondering, he took on his sister's name as a constant reminder of his purpose in Weiss and thus, we have Aya! :)

I love those amethyst eyes! Lovely. The rest of Weiss is on his sword. Yohji, Ken and Omi-chi.

This is my most favourite pic of Aya! Gahh. Words fail me. :)

This is Hatori whose animal is the Dragon (more like seahorse really) from Furuba. He's strong and silent and can be a bit cold, like Aya, he has a troubled past too.

And this is Shigure, the Dog and of the oldest members in the Sohma family. His face is more delicate looking than Hatori's but that's what makes him more hotter. haha.

And the bad ass Kyo. Honestly, sometimes I feel like killing him but he's really entertaining to watch. and still cute. :)

And this is Night, my other love other than Aya. It'll be quite nice don't you think, to have a ready made perfect guy (naked) who adores the ground you walk on, delivered right to your doorstep right? :)

I can stare at those eys all day. Although I think Riiko can be a bit more original in naming him. -_-

Riiko and her perfect (k)night. I think Riiko's damn lucky to have him, regardless of whether he's human or not.

And this is my favourite pic of Night. Hott stuffs! I realise, he and Aya can almost have the same shade of eyes. hmm. :)

I realise that my whole post is basically rubbish. haha.

oops.

I think I want to go read absolute boyfriend again. And start watching Weiss and Furuba all over again.

Could be a great de-stresser for next year. heh.

Promise me a leap of faith

Another night, another dream wasted

It's a different time yet the same story

I'll take another chance, I'll dance with the devil

And I'll let you kiss the porcelain skin

I'll watch, with my eyes wide open

I'll let you befriend me

If only you'll promise me

-Let's call it a leap of faith-

you'll take me away.

shaeira

If you asked me this

I'm taking a break.

Been simultaneously doing maths and searching for notes and critical essays that I can read to help in lit.

managed to get quite a lot that I'm going to have to filter through later.

So since I'm bored and sick of maths, thought I'd do a friendster quiz for the fun of it.

I've had almost all the questions asked to me and in case you're still wondering, my asnwers are still pretty much the same. :)

What if your EX asks you.

Answer them :

Why did I let you go?

Because you needed to learn how to regret a mistake.
Besides, if you didn’t let me go, I would have just left.

Can I win you back?

You’re still trying after 1 and a half years. That tell you anything?

I am very much happy with you back then.

That's not totally true is it? you were happier with others for a time.

I still love you.

I know.

When did we last talk?

Uh, before UK? Right?

Can you go with me?

Go where?

Hey,can i give you/ask for aride?

Sure. Someday.

Were you able to move on when I have not?

Yes.

I regret losing you.

I know. And I’m sorry but once lost, it's hard to gain back.

I cannot keep my promise to you.

You actually realize that?? Haha.

My parents do not like you.

Duh. My parents don’t like you either. -_-

You have changed.

And you’re still the same.

Mugging. :(

I'm supposed to be studying more but I feel so erggh just looking at my maths book.
And there's still lit to do. 4 essays. dieee.
I need to get out of the freaking house and study.
I'm thinking of the airport again.
Terminal 2's viewing mall will be just about perfect.
Although it's a teeny bit depressing cos I'll be reminded of London and I still miss it a little. :(
It's really too bad that shaf won't be there to mug along with me.
I miss the old days, mugging like mad for O levels.
10 hour study sessions at a corner of the viewing mall.
Ahh, well.
Time really flies.
And soon 2008 will be upon us all.
I'm going to save the reflections and the resolutions to new year's eve.
Makes it more meaningful somehow.

The drama workshops for Duchess of Malfi was pretty fun.
My dear class abandoned me so I was left to join Sue President of Loser club and Esther, in another class from my lit loves. tsk.
Still, it was fun and I enjoyed myself.
Stanley, our instructor, went through all the acts pretty thoroughly.
He also gave some invaluable tips for our exams like how you have to also know the historical background of the texts and maybe other works written in that period or other works of the same genre so that you can do a comparison and wow the Cambridge(damn I was there!) markers.
I also learned that I must imagine the characters I'm studying as real people and feel for them the way I would for anybody, meaning to say like them with all my heart and hate them with absolute passion.
It seems, I've learned quite a lot of useful things I can apply for later on.
So I'm glad to say that the workshop wasn't a complete waste of time.

Oh crap, I'm supposed to be doing my lit essays.
Should really start.
soon.
Besides, how am I supposed to actually do my work when this is the state of my table:

Class Party, 0734A

And so today was the day of our class party.

Only 9 of us turned up but still it was loads of fun spending time with all of them.

We met up at Bedok and then moved off to East Coast Park where we set up our mats and ate some light food.

Then, some of us played in the water when nad and serene got stung by a jellyfish.

poor things really. they had to go pee on the sting.

haha.

After some time, playing in the water, it was time for lunch and dai di!

I finally understand how to play it. haha

When we were busy playing, it started to rain heavily and we got caught under the rain.

serves the people who didn't want to get wet from the sea water right. haha.

We moved off to a proper shelter and continued playing until about 6 plus.

then, me, nad, naz and nami decided to go over to Parkway parade for some ice cream that turned out to be coffee, famous amos and pretzel instead.

I took 15 home, wasting even more time and thus ends the fun day out with 0734A.

I just reread this post and it sounds soo ............ and very touch and go.

Sorry, I'm dead tired since I slept at 7am again this morning.

And tomorrow there is the lit workshop to go to, meaning I have to get up damn early.

Ahh. crap shits la.

But nvm, at least I'm going with sue so I won't be all that lonely on the bus. haha.

To you:

I don't know what you think you're playing at and I have no idea when such a drastic turn of events (that is, if such a drastic change actually happened) occured and why it occured.

I have this sneaking suspicion that your past crept up and caught up with you.

I just hope to God, for your sake, that you actually know what you're doing and what you're getting yourself into.

Whatever it is that's going on, I can honestly tell you, I really don't want to know.

Not after the last time.

I just don't want to know.

So cool shit! :)

And so I was talking to sue online and this is the cool convo that we had. or rather part of it. :)

neurasthenia says:
haha..where you stay ah?
they make me smile(: says:
pasir ris! you??
neurasthenia says:
eh!
neurasthenia says:
same!
neurasthenia says:
which part which part?!?
they make me smile(: says:
you stay at pasir ris too???!?!!!!!!
they make me smile(: says:
i stay near ikea
they make me smile(: says:
near mjc
they make me smile(: says:
beside meridian pri
neurasthenia says:
ohhh...no wonder you go to pasir ris crest.. i stay near there.. haha
neurasthenia says:
cool shit!!!
they make me smile(: says:
really???!!! hahha(((:
neurasthenia says:
then how you normally go to school???
they make me smile(: says:
my dad send me to sch
they make me smile(: says:
ahhha!
neurasthenia says:
haha..now wonder..then when you go home?? 161 or 168??
they make me smile(: says:
168!
they make me smile(: says:
you???
they make me smile(: says:
i can take 161 too
neurasthenia says:
161. then i take 89...haha.. i can take 168 la actually...then drop at tamp and take 3 but leceh ah..long winded
neurasthenia says:
haha
they make me smile(: says:
i can take 161 thn 89 too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
neurasthenia says:
cool sia! we can like go home together.. HAHA
they make me smile(: says:
omg!! yes, we can go home together!!
neurasthenia says:
HAHA..
neurasthenia says:
cool shit!
neurasthenia says:
haha

So then we're both super excited about going home together. then...

neurasthenia says:
then on thurs, your dad sending??
they make me smile(: says:
nope nope, i dont think so
neurasthenia says:
HAHA..take 161 with me la!
they make me smile(: says:
so we go sch together???!!!!
they make me smile(: says:
ALRIGHTS MANN!!!
neurasthenia says:
HAHAH
neurasthenia says:
cool shit!
neurasthenia says:
thanks sue! you made my day.
they make me smile(: says:
yeahuhh!!((:
they make me smile(: says:
you made my day toooo!!!
they make me smile(: says:
okay, im smiling like an idiot right now
neurasthenia says:
HAHA.. join the smiling-like-an-idiot-club

Heh.

You can tell from the convo that we're both damn EXCITED to go to school together and maybe go home together too.

hehe.

Now I actually have something to look forward to on the 27th.

:) :) :)

Thanks sue! you made my day darl.

and see you on the thursday!!

nyahahahah

The "Its"

Some more pics from UK.

This time all on my group, the "its".

Managed to steal them from khai and zul. haha.

Really hope Cassandra gets the CD done soon.

I'm dying for the pics. :)

We were meditating at Brunei.

Me, khai and afie at London's Heathrow airport while waiting to fly off home.

Outside the YHA at Holland Park, London. From the left, Khai, Wen Jia, Me, Vani, Rekha, Afie, Ms Yap and sesat down there is zul.

Outside the Holy Trinity church at Stratford, the place where Shakespeare was buried.

In Stratford again, outside a shop selling magical stuff.

Christ church, Oxford.

And this is my most favourite lunch spot of all. On a street in oxford. :)

And that's a video dedication khai made for our group. :)

The last part's a passer-by whom we had to interview for a task on the Great London Literary Trail.

Thanks "its". I had a real good time with you all. :)

Another dream, another me

Like a doll with a wooden heart

with an ice pane of glass stuck
right there, where it'll always hurt

Hold me close, take my hand

Let me breathe

Keep me alive longer, put me on life support

I'm sorry, that it's always going to be this way

All I ever wanted was to dream another dream with you
All I ever wanted was to be more than perfect, just for you

shaeira


Sorry mum.

Am I the only one here?

I'm blogging. again.

I'm bored to the point I blog just to let my fingers have something to do.

Besides, there's hardly anyone I feel like talking to online at this point.

I'm trying really hard to stay up all the way today so that my internal clock can get rewired a bit.

I'm getting sick of not being able to sleep.

Tried to create a list of things I can do at moments like this, 3am in the morning and wide awake.

Can't seem to come up with much other than blogging and reading since there's nothing good on

TV.

(this is another reason why I should move to my grandma's next year. There's actually cable for nights when my insomnia gets intolerable)

There's a nagging voice in my head that keeps suggesting that I could actually study but the thought of actually sitting down and opening up my books and immersing myself in the Cold War isn't really all that enticing.

Then again, I'm not the kind that studys at home either.

Hell, as much as I know I'm going to regret it later, I'm wishing real hard for school to start sooner.

So that I'd at least have something to do.

I'm looking forward to my early morning peace in the canteen and then going home real late at night after a good long study session.

I think I may be the only one who wishes this.

Sue already said in her blog that she's hoping the school would burn down.

haha.

I don't know. I just feel so restless all the time when I'm not in school.

and being at home doesn't help.

It somehow always depresses me, like this weakness I can't shake off.

I'm choking on all the expectations and all the unspoken words.

I'm going blind under my parents' watchful stare, I hate it that they still watch me for a relapse.

God, I yearn to come home at 10 or 11 pm at night after a long day at school and just minding my own business in my room where noone will bother me cos everyone's just too tired with their own lives to bother into mine.

Should really go talk to nenek about moving in soon. maybe next week.

damn, I wanna go back to school already. at least for a want of something to fill up the time.

I think studying and school has been a part of me for so long that I can't think what to do when I'm actually not in school.

I remember one of the J2s saying (nash i think) that you always moan about not having a life when you're studying for A's but then after A's, you suddenly realise you still don't have a life.

Haha.

Nyahh, I'm being random again.

Oh well, at least I'll see nad tomorrow.

Study date at Woodlands civics.

(Don't ask me why I bother to make the freaking long journey all the way from home back to woodlands.)

Kinda look forward to it.

At least I'll be out of the house.

Okay enough ramblings.

Nights, I'll go continue my reading.

:)

Moments to remember

I was sitting right here, typing my history essay yesterday when I got a call from this strange foreign number.
At first my heart stalled when I thought for a second that it could be you.
But then when I picked up, I was pretty relieved to hear Ayah's familiar voice down the line.
I was so surprised he actually called that I kept quiet for a while.
He was like, "fiqah? kenal tk ni saper?"
silence from me. I had no idea how to reply really.
him: "ni dari malaysia ni. ayah la."
And then finally my brain woke up and I started blabbering away, asking him how's he and ibu are doing, telling him about UK, apologising for not contacting him earlier and telling him the code to call back to Singapore.
He was extremely nice and listened to me babble and reassuring me again and again that both he and ibu were perfectly fine.
He finally ended by wishing me selamat hari raya haji and asking me to send my regards to naz and zilah and fiza and lastly, telling me to take care of myself.
I think my heart almost broke at his last line cos I was so touched by his concern even though we've only met in such a short space of time.
damn. I miss him and ibu and amir and the whole kampung life there.
Gotta drag naz back there to visit one day.
How naz? up for it? :)

Anyway, here's some pics from the KL trip I went to for MLEP before I flew off for UK.

Plenty of memories and moments to remember, both sweet and bad from that trip as well.

:)

And that's us with ibu and ayah. <3

Fishing. I actually caught a fish. haha. :)

I love this pic although nami and naz not in it.