Sometimes, you need someone to tell you you're wrong

It's raining again.

comforting. jus feel lyk cuddling up under the covers n gg 2 sleep.

yest was an eye-opening day in a way.

firsts for everyting. :)

lost drink-ginity. heh.

didnt try it straight up thou.

had coffee in e morning n u noe i cant hold my caffeine

esp wen i've had it everyday 4 e past god knows how many days.

bt i cant stop drinking cos im alrdy addicted 2 it. :)

so yea, didnt wanna risk a major heartburn since i've run out of my meds.

was a lil scared of dat

so drank it diluted wif coke.

cldnt reali taste aniting in e coke bottles e five of us diluted.

wasnt strong enuff ah.

bt bt e one zidd diluted ws greeaaat.. after-taste rocks.

haha.

i wan more. sheesh. i'm a bad girl. whoops.

had eye-opening talk wif nikki.

im amazed at how much she can tolerate of me.

im like e most stubborn-est person ever or sth bt she cn still have e patience 2 drill stuffs in 2 my head.

logical. she made me see wat i've refused 2 see 4 dunno how long.

dat;

1) i tink abt stuffs 2 much. esp wen i stone.

2)i live in e past. a lot. n i can't let go.

3)i love creating problems for myself. n wen dere's nth 4 me 2 worry abt, i create sth 4 me 2 worry abt.

4) i wan attn bt yet i dun wan it wen im given it.

in a way, she's right.

abt everyting.

Have i ever left you? no.

Have you ever left me?.silence.yes.

So shldn't i be the one hu's insecure instead of you?

i'm the one who's gotta live with dat everyday.

so ryt nw, i gotta go unscrew myself n listen 2 my own advice on other ppl n actuali practise wat i preach.

carpe diem n jus live my life as it comes ryt nw n nt tink 2 much abt stuffs dat happened.

i tink i reali gotta do some serious soul-searching so any1 up 2 gg 2 e beach wif me?

bt ryt now, i tink i gotta do sum self-punishment.

althou i noe i shldnt use dat as an excuse.

i tink i'll go tok 2 nikki again later.