Realisation hits when you least expect it

All and everyting dats happening has thrown me into a whirlwind of realisation.

i realise my mistakes

and trust me, i'm doing all in my power to rectify all that i've done wrong

i guess all e other times i said i wanted out, i never managed to because i didnt put my whole heart into it

but now, i want out. and im going 2 fucking get out.

dats my promise to myself.

yupps.

this past few days have thot me the meaning of life. the meaning of frenship.

the meaning of a smile. and most of all, the meaning of a mum's love.

u noe wen u grow up, u always wanna b independant, u wan 2 prove dat u can survive n b strong wifout ur mum constantly hankering over u.

dats how i felt too.

bt now, after all dis, i realise dat i still need my mum veri veri much.

i need her love and her warm hugs and her prescence.

basically i just need her.

i love my mum loads.

i jus never bothered to realise how much exactly.

:)

before i sign out, i wanna say a little something to a special person

the person hu's always going to b dere 4 me 24/7 , 365 days in a year

so here's a little thank u frm me 2 u

i noe dat u got ur own frens and i got my own frens

but i also noe dat no matter wat, regardless of wat happens u always got my back.

u'll always b dere 4 me regardless of how annoying, irritating and goddamn bitchy i can get.

regardless of wat happened in the past

u'r still gonna b dere 4 me.always.

thnx shaf. 4 everyting.