Sunday, May 28, 2006

The very essence of life

I'll start by stating 5 tings that have changed in me over the course of this past month.
1. I'm more positive now. learning 2 swallow e meat more instead of the bones.i mean dats wat u gotta learn in life. u got 2 have dat skill of eating fish n applying it in ur life. u haf 2 pick out the bones that are going 2 hurt and just take in wat nourishes you.
2. i'm not suicidal anymore. dats a big improvement. i love living life now. i noe dats kinda hard 2 believe coming from someone like me. lets jus say i've got shitloads of epiphanys. sometimes it takes a person's sorrow 2 wake u up from urs.
3. i haf an actual relationship wif my mum now. dat is e bestest ting ever. i love my mum. i jus never realised how much.
4. i'm more of my own person now. i realise dat i haf my own likes and dislikes. i haf my own stand and i noe wat i want.
5.i'm more independant now. i realise dat in this world, u gotta stand on ur own 2 feet. pick urself up. after all, ur living 4 urself.
hmm, I jus realised that my social circle has been widening.
dats a gd ting.
spent an entire day wif 4 other u cld call strangers.
abg wan, kak ina, shasha and yati.
had tons of fun.
went to e cemetry 1st ting in e morning.
i visited atok's grave again. read out e letter i wrote 2 him.
yes e letter was in eng n i dun tink he noes eng bt i noe he understands wat i wan 2 say.
surprisingly, i didnt cry. :)
went to upper pierce reservoir next to see monkeys. [seriously, im not kidding]
had a talk even though it was raining cats and dogs.
i must say its a nice place. peaceful and tranquil.
spent an hour or so there jus getting 2 noe each other and share our probs n all dat.
its amazing wat u have in common wif total strangers. only then will u realise dat u are never alone.
had lunch at bugis next n den went 2 bugis street for some much needed retail therapy.
bought 4 myself a handbag which is a 1st 4 me. it was a kinda impulse ting. :)
had coffee at starbucks after. i had a caramel java chip or sth lyk dat. damn nice. tastes kinda like rhummba actuali. [stoopid ting 2 do,taking off e rhummba frap. caramel rhummba fraps so rock my world]
went for x-men next. e movie so totally rocks. i loved every single moment of it. wanna watch it again.
in conclusion, i had a veri fun and great day. made some new frens and i love dat. e ability to meet new ppl and interact wif strangers.its amazing how much u can connect wif a person in jus under 12 hrs. strange isnt it how u can pour ur heart out to a total stranger and connect on a much deeper level.
its jus one of those things dat life does jus so u open ur eyes and see the true essence of life and give urself more reasons to live.

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