The bitter truth will just slap you on your face

I'm feeling ergh.

been feeling ergh since last few days?

i dunno whether 2 rant or nt.

cos if i rant, i might turn a teeny bit ugly.

n i dun wan ppl 2 get e wrong idea u noe.

or rather lyk i shld control my temper.

n take wat ppl say in stride.

its jus wat u say dat i take 2 heart ryt?

cos you said it.

i mean, wat more do u want frm me?

am i supposed 2 b a recluse n stone everyday?

i dunno.

mayb i shld do dat.

yeah bt wen i do dat u end up asking me wats wrong.

so i dunno wat exactly u wan me 2 do.

honestly, sumtyms, i tink u take me 4 granted.

like i'd always b dere 4 u wenever.

sumtyms i tink u 4get 2 appreciate e tings i do 4 u.

mayb i dun do a lot. yeah i tink dats it. mayb wat i do isnt enuff.

sumtyms. i honestly wonder y i bother so much cos it seems lyk i'm e onli one bothering.

oh wait, u col dat me being over paranoid

maybe cos its u. dats y im over paranoid.

do u see me overparanoid abt everybody else?

wat do u wan frm me?

can u jus tell me?

give it 2 me straight rather den u keep it in n roll ur eyes at me or sth.

do u wan me 2 kill myself 4 u?

sure. y not? if u ask me 2 i wld.

did u noe dat?

i dun tink u did.

well, now u do.

im jus feeling a little under appreciated right now

so excuse my words.

the bitter truth will just come up and slap u in e face.

like how i chose you and you turned around and give me a tight slap with what you said.

i'm not going to lie.

it hurts.

both my pride and my heart.

thanks 4 e bullets.