No matter what I do

No matter what I do, I have to think of you.

It's not always easy to do what I want to do.

Cos your feelings matter in it too.

Honestly sometimes I don't know why I bother cos it's killing me inside.

I just pray to god to grant me that strength to face you every day and keep it all in.

I just hope I can continue taking every hit you shoot at me.

And i hope i can still numb myself.

My dear twin sister I never had,

Where are you?

Everytime I reach out to you, I find myself blocked by this invisible wall.

Maybe we're both been too busy to catch up.

I hope what I think is happening to us isn't gonna happen.

Cos shit like that is not supposed to happen to us.

You know, you'll always have a place in my heart, as cheesy as that sounds.

I just have a freaking soft spot for you basically.

Well, I just gotta say that I miss you like fuck.

And I love ya girl.

Hope you know that.