Please

As I'm typing this, my breathing is ragged.

My eyes are turning misty.

My heart is clenching and unclenching.

I can't take anymore and I know it.

I'm at the breaking point and I know it.

I don't wanna cry.

I don't wanna let it all out but I know I need it.

I hate feeling like this.

There are so many things running around inside my head like a suspended vortex.

I'm not even sure what I'm typing right now.

Am I even making sense?

What I need right now is to cry.

Cry and let it all out.

But I can't cos there's no catalayst.

I need you to break me down.

I need you to force me to talk about it.

I need you to tell me what I don't want to hear.

I need you to resist me pushing you away.

I just fucking need you.

Please.

I gotta do this now cos they're getting louder.