Weiss Kreuz and Zettai Kareshi is still love! <3

I was cleaning my room when I found the old Weiss Kreuz deck of cards I got for my birthday a couple of years ago.
Ahh, I remember the times I was so into them and also Furuba.
I still prefer Weiss Kreuz, the tale of 4 nightly assassins who are florists by day, but mostly for Aya/Ran and a little bit of Ken and Omi and Schu of course.
Although Schu can get quite irritating and Ken, a bit too gay. Still, Omi’s cute and Aya.. sigghh
He used to make me gush like mad. haha.
He still does. a little. :)
I know his real name is Ran but I still like calling him Aya! :)
K, I sound totally mad since they're anime and well, 2-dimensional and not real.
But, Aya's still hottt stuffs!! haha.


Furuba is also nice cos of Hatori and Shigure and of course Kyo. :)
Haha. The three of them are all so different from each other.
Hatori’s like the strong and silent type with the dark hidden past (kinda like Aya) and Shigure’s all nice and bubbly and Kyo. Well, Kyo’s a downright bad ass boy with a secretly good side.
I think I got a thing for guys like that. Haha.


Oh yes! Zettai Kareshi! Or Absolute Boyfriend! :)
I love that manga. Its fluffy and all and totally different from Weiss Kruez but how can you stand not liking it and Night??
Gahhhh. So hotts.
I remember a lot of the niners were gushing over Night and reading it during lessons. Haha. And some of us who couldn’t wait to read the translated version actually went to read the actual one. Haha.Those were the days.
Now, gushing over Night would be even more insane cos other than the fact that he’s 2-dimensional and not real, he’s also a robot in the story.
Nyahaha. -_-
Okay. Time for pics!!
(I act like they’re real people -_- and I think I sound a bit like sue gushing over her kpop. -_- )

Weiss Kreuz. I love this picture. With all their feline codenames. Aya's Abyssinian. They don't look much like deadly assassins do they? haha.

Ran Fujimiya, you're simply too hottt. :) and in case you're wondering, he took on his sister's name as a constant reminder of his purpose in Weiss and thus, we have Aya! :)

I love those amethyst eyes! Lovely. The rest of Weiss is on his sword. Yohji, Ken and Omi-chi.

This is my most favourite pic of Aya! Gahh. Words fail me. :)

This is Hatori whose animal is the Dragon (more like seahorse really) from Furuba. He's strong and silent and can be a bit cold, like Aya, he has a troubled past too.

And this is Shigure, the Dog and of the oldest members in the Sohma family. His face is more delicate looking than Hatori's but that's what makes him more hotter. haha.

And the bad ass Kyo. Honestly, sometimes I feel like killing him but he's really entertaining to watch. and still cute. :)

And this is Night, my other love other than Aya. It'll be quite nice don't you think, to have a ready made perfect guy (naked) who adores the ground you walk on, delivered right to your doorstep right? :)

I can stare at those eys all day. Although I think Riiko can be a bit more original in naming him. -_-

Riiko and her perfect (k)night. I think Riiko's damn lucky to have him, regardless of whether he's human or not.

And this is my favourite pic of Night. Hott stuffs! I realise, he and Aya can almost have the same shade of eyes. hmm. :)

I realise that my whole post is basically rubbish. haha.

oops.

I think I want to go read absolute boyfriend again. And start watching Weiss and Furuba all over again.

Could be a great de-stresser for next year. heh.

Promise me a leap of faith

Another night, another dream wasted

It's a different time yet the same story

I'll take another chance, I'll dance with the devil

And I'll let you kiss the porcelain skin

I'll watch, with my eyes wide open

I'll let you befriend me

If only you'll promise me

-Let's call it a leap of faith-

you'll take me away.

shaeira

If you asked me this

I'm taking a break.

Been simultaneously doing maths and searching for notes and critical essays that I can read to help in lit.

managed to get quite a lot that I'm going to have to filter through later.

So since I'm bored and sick of maths, thought I'd do a friendster quiz for the fun of it.

I've had almost all the questions asked to me and in case you're still wondering, my asnwers are still pretty much the same. :)

What if your EX asks you.

Answer them :

Why did I let you go?

Because you needed to learn how to regret a mistake.
Besides, if you didn’t let me go, I would have just left.

Can I win you back?

You’re still trying after 1 and a half years. That tell you anything?

I am very much happy with you back then.

That's not totally true is it? you were happier with others for a time.

I still love you.

I know.

When did we last talk?

Uh, before UK? Right?

Can you go with me?

Go where?

Hey,can i give you/ask for aride?

Sure. Someday.

Were you able to move on when I have not?

Yes.

I regret losing you.

I know. And I’m sorry but once lost, it's hard to gain back.

I cannot keep my promise to you.

You actually realize that?? Haha.

My parents do not like you.

Duh. My parents don’t like you either. -_-

You have changed.

And you’re still the same.

Mugging. :(

I'm supposed to be studying more but I feel so erggh just looking at my maths book.
And there's still lit to do. 4 essays. dieee.
I need to get out of the freaking house and study.
I'm thinking of the airport again.
Terminal 2's viewing mall will be just about perfect.
Although it's a teeny bit depressing cos I'll be reminded of London and I still miss it a little. :(
It's really too bad that shaf won't be there to mug along with me.
I miss the old days, mugging like mad for O levels.
10 hour study sessions at a corner of the viewing mall.
Ahh, well.
Time really flies.
And soon 2008 will be upon us all.
I'm going to save the reflections and the resolutions to new year's eve.
Makes it more meaningful somehow.

The drama workshops for Duchess of Malfi was pretty fun.
My dear class abandoned me so I was left to join Sue President of Loser club and Esther, in another class from my lit loves. tsk.
Still, it was fun and I enjoyed myself.
Stanley, our instructor, went through all the acts pretty thoroughly.
He also gave some invaluable tips for our exams like how you have to also know the historical background of the texts and maybe other works written in that period or other works of the same genre so that you can do a comparison and wow the Cambridge(damn I was there!) markers.
I also learned that I must imagine the characters I'm studying as real people and feel for them the way I would for anybody, meaning to say like them with all my heart and hate them with absolute passion.
It seems, I've learned quite a lot of useful things I can apply for later on.
So I'm glad to say that the workshop wasn't a complete waste of time.

Oh crap, I'm supposed to be doing my lit essays.
Should really start.
soon.
Besides, how am I supposed to actually do my work when this is the state of my table:

Class Party, 0734A

And so today was the day of our class party.

Only 9 of us turned up but still it was loads of fun spending time with all of them.

We met up at Bedok and then moved off to East Coast Park where we set up our mats and ate some light food.

Then, some of us played in the water when nad and serene got stung by a jellyfish.

poor things really. they had to go pee on the sting.

haha.

After some time, playing in the water, it was time for lunch and dai di!

I finally understand how to play it. haha

When we were busy playing, it started to rain heavily and we got caught under the rain.

serves the people who didn't want to get wet from the sea water right. haha.

We moved off to a proper shelter and continued playing until about 6 plus.

then, me, nad, naz and nami decided to go over to Parkway parade for some ice cream that turned out to be coffee, famous amos and pretzel instead.

I took 15 home, wasting even more time and thus ends the fun day out with 0734A.

I just reread this post and it sounds soo ............ and very touch and go.

Sorry, I'm dead tired since I slept at 7am again this morning.

And tomorrow there is the lit workshop to go to, meaning I have to get up damn early.

Ahh. crap shits la.

But nvm, at least I'm going with sue so I won't be all that lonely on the bus. haha.

To you:

I don't know what you think you're playing at and I have no idea when such a drastic turn of events (that is, if such a drastic change actually happened) occured and why it occured.

I have this sneaking suspicion that your past crept up and caught up with you.

I just hope to God, for your sake, that you actually know what you're doing and what you're getting yourself into.

Whatever it is that's going on, I can honestly tell you, I really don't want to know.

Not after the last time.

I just don't want to know.

So cool shit! :)

And so I was talking to sue online and this is the cool convo that we had. or rather part of it. :)

neurasthenia says:
haha..where you stay ah?
they make me smile(: says:
pasir ris! you??
neurasthenia says:
eh!
neurasthenia says:
same!
neurasthenia says:
which part which part?!?
they make me smile(: says:
you stay at pasir ris too???!?!!!!!!
they make me smile(: says:
i stay near ikea
they make me smile(: says:
near mjc
they make me smile(: says:
beside meridian pri
neurasthenia says:
ohhh...no wonder you go to pasir ris crest.. i stay near there.. haha
neurasthenia says:
cool shit!!!
they make me smile(: says:
really???!!! hahha(((:
neurasthenia says:
then how you normally go to school???
they make me smile(: says:
my dad send me to sch
they make me smile(: says:
ahhha!
neurasthenia says:
haha..now wonder..then when you go home?? 161 or 168??
they make me smile(: says:
168!
they make me smile(: says:
you???
they make me smile(: says:
i can take 161 too
neurasthenia says:
161. then i take 89...haha.. i can take 168 la actually...then drop at tamp and take 3 but leceh ah..long winded
neurasthenia says:
haha
they make me smile(: says:
i can take 161 thn 89 too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
neurasthenia says:
cool sia! we can like go home together.. HAHA
they make me smile(: says:
omg!! yes, we can go home together!!
neurasthenia says:
HAHA..
neurasthenia says:
cool shit!
neurasthenia says:
haha

So then we're both super excited about going home together. then...

neurasthenia says:
then on thurs, your dad sending??
they make me smile(: says:
nope nope, i dont think so
neurasthenia says:
HAHA..take 161 with me la!
they make me smile(: says:
so we go sch together???!!!!
they make me smile(: says:
ALRIGHTS MANN!!!
neurasthenia says:
HAHAH
neurasthenia says:
cool shit!
neurasthenia says:
thanks sue! you made my day.
they make me smile(: says:
yeahuhh!!((:
they make me smile(: says:
you made my day toooo!!!
they make me smile(: says:
okay, im smiling like an idiot right now
neurasthenia says:
HAHA.. join the smiling-like-an-idiot-club

Heh.

You can tell from the convo that we're both damn EXCITED to go to school together and maybe go home together too.

hehe.

Now I actually have something to look forward to on the 27th.

:) :) :)

Thanks sue! you made my day darl.

and see you on the thursday!!

nyahahahah

The "Its"

Some more pics from UK.

This time all on my group, the "its".

Managed to steal them from khai and zul. haha.

Really hope Cassandra gets the CD done soon.

I'm dying for the pics. :)

We were meditating at Brunei.

Me, khai and afie at London's Heathrow airport while waiting to fly off home.

Outside the YHA at Holland Park, London. From the left, Khai, Wen Jia, Me, Vani, Rekha, Afie, Ms Yap and sesat down there is zul.

Outside the Holy Trinity church at Stratford, the place where Shakespeare was buried.

In Stratford again, outside a shop selling magical stuff.

Christ church, Oxford.

And this is my most favourite lunch spot of all. On a street in oxford. :)

And that's a video dedication khai made for our group. :)

The last part's a passer-by whom we had to interview for a task on the Great London Literary Trail.

Thanks "its". I had a real good time with you all. :)

Another dream, another me

Like a doll with a wooden heart

with an ice pane of glass stuck
right there, where it'll always hurt

Hold me close, take my hand

Let me breathe

Keep me alive longer, put me on life support

I'm sorry, that it's always going to be this way

All I ever wanted was to dream another dream with you
All I ever wanted was to be more than perfect, just for you

shaeira


Sorry mum.

Am I the only one here?

I'm blogging. again.

I'm bored to the point I blog just to let my fingers have something to do.

Besides, there's hardly anyone I feel like talking to online at this point.

I'm trying really hard to stay up all the way today so that my internal clock can get rewired a bit.

I'm getting sick of not being able to sleep.

Tried to create a list of things I can do at moments like this, 3am in the morning and wide awake.

Can't seem to come up with much other than blogging and reading since there's nothing good on

TV.

(this is another reason why I should move to my grandma's next year. There's actually cable for nights when my insomnia gets intolerable)

There's a nagging voice in my head that keeps suggesting that I could actually study but the thought of actually sitting down and opening up my books and immersing myself in the Cold War isn't really all that enticing.

Then again, I'm not the kind that studys at home either.

Hell, as much as I know I'm going to regret it later, I'm wishing real hard for school to start sooner.

So that I'd at least have something to do.

I'm looking forward to my early morning peace in the canteen and then going home real late at night after a good long study session.

I think I may be the only one who wishes this.

Sue already said in her blog that she's hoping the school would burn down.

haha.

I don't know. I just feel so restless all the time when I'm not in school.

and being at home doesn't help.

It somehow always depresses me, like this weakness I can't shake off.

I'm choking on all the expectations and all the unspoken words.

I'm going blind under my parents' watchful stare, I hate it that they still watch me for a relapse.

God, I yearn to come home at 10 or 11 pm at night after a long day at school and just minding my own business in my room where noone will bother me cos everyone's just too tired with their own lives to bother into mine.

Should really go talk to nenek about moving in soon. maybe next week.

damn, I wanna go back to school already. at least for a want of something to fill up the time.

I think studying and school has been a part of me for so long that I can't think what to do when I'm actually not in school.

I remember one of the J2s saying (nash i think) that you always moan about not having a life when you're studying for A's but then after A's, you suddenly realise you still don't have a life.

Haha.

Nyahh, I'm being random again.

Oh well, at least I'll see nad tomorrow.

Study date at Woodlands civics.

(Don't ask me why I bother to make the freaking long journey all the way from home back to woodlands.)

Kinda look forward to it.

At least I'll be out of the house.

Okay enough ramblings.

Nights, I'll go continue my reading.

:)

Moments to remember

I was sitting right here, typing my history essay yesterday when I got a call from this strange foreign number.
At first my heart stalled when I thought for a second that it could be you.
But then when I picked up, I was pretty relieved to hear Ayah's familiar voice down the line.
I was so surprised he actually called that I kept quiet for a while.
He was like, "fiqah? kenal tk ni saper?"
silence from me. I had no idea how to reply really.
him: "ni dari malaysia ni. ayah la."
And then finally my brain woke up and I started blabbering away, asking him how's he and ibu are doing, telling him about UK, apologising for not contacting him earlier and telling him the code to call back to Singapore.
He was extremely nice and listened to me babble and reassuring me again and again that both he and ibu were perfectly fine.
He finally ended by wishing me selamat hari raya haji and asking me to send my regards to naz and zilah and fiza and lastly, telling me to take care of myself.
I think my heart almost broke at his last line cos I was so touched by his concern even though we've only met in such a short space of time.
damn. I miss him and ibu and amir and the whole kampung life there.
Gotta drag naz back there to visit one day.
How naz? up for it? :)

Anyway, here's some pics from the KL trip I went to for MLEP before I flew off for UK.

Plenty of memories and moments to remember, both sweet and bad from that trip as well.

:)

And that's us with ibu and ayah. <3

Fishing. I actually caught a fish. haha. :)

I love this pic although nami and naz not in it.

More picturesque moments :)

And so boredom has driven me to upload more pics here.

haha.

Again, they're of scenery cos poor Cassandra still has to sift through literally thousands and thousands of photos and then burn them into a CD.

except the last photo but I stole that from sue anyway so it's not counted.

So here's more pics, Afie, go steal some more if you want. heh.

Sue, I wanna steal your pics so like hurry and upload them you loser! :P

York Minster.

Away before me to sweet beds of flowers.


And thou shalt go in and order a large Hawaiian pizza.

I'll wish upon this penny that I drop into your depths.

The Royal Crescent at Bath.

The two streaks of white that cuts open the morning sky.

Christ Church, Oxford.

They were having a promotion of bee movie. thus the bee.

The view over the river Thames

One of my favourite places, the GLOBE.

I'll take you by the hand and lead you through the streets of London.

St. Paul's Cathedral.

St. Paul's cathedral again, up close.

As he stands guard over our hearts.

Can you tell the time through the rain drops?

This is another one of my favourite pics. Credits to Afie who took it. :)

The 2 afiqahs and loser sue in between. haha.

opps. I'm wearing the cambridge hoodie she really wanted.

Sorry sue. I'll lend it to you k. heh.

speaking of sue, me and her came up with a plan.

We were thinking maybe weekly lunches for the girls and j1 dinners on every 17th of the month.

Cool shit right?? heh.

Plans are to be finalized but trust me, it IS going to happen cos we so need to reinforce the friendships we built all the way away in UK.

love and miss you all.

:)

The Picturesque moments

Finally I got the pics uploaded.

Here are some random bits here and there cos I can't possibly upload every single photo I took.

Mind you, they're all of scenery and objects and such.

For the rest of the photos, I'm still waiting for Cassandra's collation.

Although it may take quite a while since she has over 2000 to sift through and edit.

So enjoy.

And the stones beneath our feet.

The Angels that watch over our sleep.

Model of the Globe

In the actual Globe.

And all the world's a stage.

The gate to a magical world.

The dining hall of Hogwarts.

The equivalent of the MRT, the London Underground/Tube.

Teddy Bears dangling on a string at a fun fair.

The Grilled fish and potato dinner at an English Pub.

The Roman Bath.

Bath Abbey.

Stratford.

Statue dedicated to Shakespeare's A Midsummer Night's Dream.

Where Shakespeare took his first breaths.

The scary mansion we stayed in at Haworth.

Roses by the window.

Haworth.

Skipton Castle. Des or Mais. Forgot what it meant though.

The ray of hope through an archer's slit.

Lord Clifford's crest.

Untainted Skies.

From the window of Skipton Castle.

Carved into stone, our love will last.

My personal favourite, A rainbow under a different sky.