Neurasthenia

she didn't col me back...she doesnt care enuff...she didnt listen...she cldnt hear me scream...mayb she doesnt want to...am i dat bad? till even she gave up on me...wen she said she wont, she lied...

I thot ur e onli 1 hu wld actuali understand wifout judging...guess u proved me wrong again...cos wen i wan 2 tell u, im hit wif e realization dat i cant...i cant get thru 2 u...bt its okay.. cos behind my smile, is sth u'll nvr be able to understand...n i wont want 2 make u get it...

she senses everyone else but me...wen im so down n on e window ledge, she cldnt find me...she doesnt care enuff...she cld find every1 else...feel their pain...but sumhow, she cant feel mine...wen she said she cld and understood, she lied...

I thot i cld tell u anything...bt i dun wan 2 be a burden 2 u...i dun want 2 taint ur life even though i noe i tainted it b4...not dis tym...its okay...u dun haf 2 b my saviour...i wont want to put u thru all dat...

she said she loved me...she said im next on her frenship list... i was dere 4 her wen she needed me...bt im yesterdays news 2 her now..she doesnt care 2 noe...she doesnt care at all...wen she said "i'll always b dere 4 u...", she lied...

i thot u'd always b dere 4 me lyk how im always here 4 u...guess im a fool 4 thinking dat...cos i dunno where u are now...i cant seem 2 find u...bt its okay...i noe u nd ur space n it was superficial frm e start anyway...i wont want 2 put u thru e pain of knowing me and e disappointment i noe u'll feel...

she said i was her saviour...she said i was e onli 1 hu cared...but now, shes not dere...she cant understand anyway even wen she try so hard to...wen she said "I'm here 4 u...jus col me..." , she lied...

I thot u will b e last 1 2 leave cos of e bond we had...apparently, it wasnt strong enuff...bt its okay...i noe sumhow maybe u cld still b dere...bt not now...i wont want to put u thru another headache dat goes by the name of me...u haf enuff on ur plate...





~Only enemies speak the truth. Friends lie endlessly, caught in the web of duty...~