Buntu

I'm tired so I'm not going to post about my day in school. Although I just wanna say that I love IJC. It's taking a little while to get used to everything but I love the school and the people. semuer giler sak. baik ah, nnt satu IJC kenal sal memekak sgt.haha :)


Met dilah and shameen after school to go the the IT Fair and both commented on my eyebags and the workload I would have to do later, being a JC student and all. And they rubbed it in with all the stuff Poly students are equipped with. I'm not making sense but whatever.


I found this a little while ago. Wrote it sometime back when I was seriously bored and Bani generously provided me with the word.


BUNTU
Aku mengangkat pena. Buku tulis di hujung meja ku capai dan ku buka lembaran yang baru. Kesucian warna putih lembaran baru dicemar garisan hitam yang teratur kemas. Pena yang sudah siap ku genggam, ku letakkan di bahagian atas lembaran putih. Dakwat di dalam pena mula meninggalkan nokhtah hitam di tengah-tengah garisan. Namun,tanganku terkunci, enggan bergerak. Pena juga tidak menari, membentuk kata-kata yang berserabut di dalam mindaku. Aku memaksa tanganku bergerak. Garisan hitam berdakwat ku lahirkan lalui pena biru. Namun, tidak dapat aku teruskan gerakan tanganku untuk menyempurnakan abjad yang seharusnya lahir dari garisan hitam berdakwat. Fikiranku tiba-tiba gersang. Puing-puing perkataan yang senantiasa berputar ligat di dalam mindaku tiba-tiba hilang. Ah...keluhan terlepas daripada rekahan bibirku. Aku kehilangan ilham yang baru sahaja bertandang dan kini sudah berlalu pergi. Seakan hembusan bayu yang singgah mendakap langsir dan terus berlalu sesaat kemudian. Ah...ternyata, aku sekali lagi BUNTU.


This is another one I found. Argh, I need to write more. The O's totally killed my inspiration. But reading diy's blog inspired me again. (she writes gorgeous sajaks) I shall aim to write more poems and sajaks or whatever. :)


Teguh
pintu renggang sedetik
lalu
cakerawala terhenti di putaran
tubuh,dipenuhi udara yang tidak dihembuskan
sayang, pintu tertutup rapat kembali
saat yang hilang
tergantung di ranting kenangan
Ada apa dengan kaca pendinding?
hinggakan peluru tiada kuasa menembusi
buka pintunya
pecahkan kacanya
harus berapa lama mendindingkan sekeping hati?
biar si labah-labah yang menyulam kesudahannya
biar bintang-bintang yang suratkan akhirnya
pasrah saja biarkan pendinding kaca berdiri
dalam waktu berjalan lalu,
pendinding kaca 'kan retak lalu pecah
dan pintunya pasti 'kan terbuka


"Aku tk nampak bola dier pon."
"Cam ne kau nk nampak bola dier. dier kn kai seluar."


"It's either your insults just suck or orli sucks. I think its the former and latter."


"Biler mak awak marah awak, tu dier sdg berpuisi."


I've been scheduling various appointments when I can but sometimes I need appointments too. Mostly appointments with food. My appetite's just been pretty shot this past week. Dilah actually sat down and forced me to eat something. And she forced a bottle of water on me in the train, like this mummy forcing her kid to drink more water. She said I'm so tired cos I'm basically dehydrated. I must say she has a strong case there. I haven't been drinking enough that's why I'm so tired and weak at times. Of course the two or three cans of Nescafe I take everyday to stay awake doesn't really help.