Somewhere a clock is ticking

Yesterday was umm, how 2 say, "illuminating"

i swear to god, the things i find out everytym we get 2gether is lyk whoa.

damn.

apparently being a sadistic liar is tolerated well in e elder society.

or maybe ppl jus dun wanna c u noe?

cant believe u actuali did all dat shit. nt onli 2 ur own bro. bt 2 e rest of us as well. wat kind of a person r u?

n 4 fuck's sake u mofo, get a grip on urself.

or ur gonna end up jus lyk her.

ur lyk wasting away ur life n all dat.

sheesh, i dun give a fucking fuck if u do dat 2 urself u noe bt dude, tink abt ur mom.

dun u even feel an ounce of pity 4 her?

dat she has 2 go thru all dat shit wif u n all?

ok. u noe wat, e best i cn do 4 u ryt nw is 2 jus b dere 4 u.

i cn tell u wats right n wrong bt i cant force u 2 stop.

dats ur call 2 make.

ok.

10 mins 2 go 2 tabtv.

gonna nd all e luck i cn get.

damn.

i bought jus nw. jus hope i stick 2 using 4 tearing out my chem pract bk neatly.

sigh.

mon ws a nt so gd day.

luckily karma intervened? mayb e karma police was on e watch.

i dunno. its jus e ting sum1 said in passing dat hit me hard.

"what kind of a _____ makes u cry?"

i saw ur face den n i felt so guilty.

im so sori 4 hurting u n making u cry.

im reali reali sori 4 all dat i've ever done n 4 all dat i've never done.

ur ryt. i cn nvr 4give myself 4 all dat i've ever done 2 u.

n if every tear u shed because of me is a raindrop, i'd ask u 2 drown me in it.

bt i cant do dat.

if only i cld punish myself 4 it, i'd match every drop of ur tears with a drop.

bt i cant. cos i promised u.