Just like a pill

Its one of those days when i just want to curl up under my blanket.

Its one of those days when i just want to hug my teddy tight.

Its one of those days when i wish i was someone else, living an alternate life.

Its one of those days that i cant breathe cos it hurts.

Its one of those days when i need IT so badly, i'll break.

15 minutes.

dat's e time limit i've given myself.

if i still crave IT, i'll do it.

5 more minutes b4 my time is gonna b up.

challenge myself 2 last another 15.

challenge myself 2 last the night.

challenge myself 2 last the week.

and the next.

and the next after dat.

someone once said to me: "It's just like a pill. It makes you more ill before it makes u well."

I hate myself 4 wanting it.

4 pining and craving 4 it.

4 nt forgetting abt it.

4 nt forgiving them.

and 4 nt forgiving myself.

that dream i had of u scared me.

it hurts most that i'm losing u.

n dat i cant col u n tok 2 u like i used 2.

Time's up.

I'll last another 15 minutes.

I have to.